Isn't It Hard?

When a student graduated in college, he is expected to look and have a job as soon as possible. But lucky are those whose family already have a business or have a connection to big companies because they don't need to look for a job. They just have to apply or submit an application just as front that they follow the requirements to be hired. And fortunate those who do extremely well in school because some of the jobs are already waiting for them. But for those who don't have a link to any company and not that good in school will really have a hard time looking for a job.

I was maybe one of those who have the hard time finding a job. As just today, I went to the mall to register for the job fair that will happen this coming May 1, 2011 as a celebration of the labor day in Davao City. And aside from it, me and my friend walk around the city to look for a job. Submit an application and resume, and being told to wait for a call or text. While some told to comeback tomorrow for an examination. Isn't it hard to have a job? Yes it is hard. You have to go through to different stages and steps. But  though it's not easy to have one, I am hopeful that I can have it as soon as possible.  I believe that God will help me get some.

Will It Be Him?

They said being in love is the most wonderful feeling in the world. It could be a chance God has given to us to the very person we will be spending time for the rest of our lives. It will come unexpectedly and surprisingly. They said, you wouldn't know whom your heart will fall for. You wouldn't know because sometimes you will just feel it. Falling in love to someone is sometimes a fairytale story. You don't anticipate it to happen but it happens. I don't know how to define love but I know the feeling of being in love.

Sometimes being in love will make us think that the person we already have is the right one. That though circumstances separate you to each other, you will still hold to the promises you've shared. I know because I thought and do of it too especially when the time came I fall in love to someone unpredictably. I don't know how it happens but I feel it suddenly as I known him better. As time passes by, I fall for him each day and I'm so afraid to handle such feeling. And though it's been a year now that we don't see each other, my feelings remains they same for him. That is why I have asked myself, will it be him? Is he the right one for me? Is he the one I will spend the rest of my life though our relationship is not perfect?

My Pretty Little Dream

Each of us have these little dreams in our hearts. These dreams are the one that inspires us to continue living our life and to continue hoping for the best of it. It could be somewhat nonsense to others but for you who dreamed for it is the most valuable possession you may have in your life. Anyway, dreaming is not bad as long as you know how to carry those dreams and the things you do to achieve those are in accordance to God's will. I, as a person have this little dream of my life.

Thinking of my family being separated by distance, I longed to be with them again. I dream that one day, we will be together watching television, eating delicious foods while sharing simple talks and laughs. It's a simplest desire of my heart but at times so difficult to carry out. Living in different places make this dream so hard to achieve.  And though distance separate us from each other, I wouldn't stop aspiring that this little dream of mine will be heard by God and be realize one day. I'll continue being hopeful that His goodness and mercy will brought us back together as one family again.

"I Want To Be a CPA"

That was my statement way back fourth year high school. All I wanted is to be a Certified Public Accountant. I've heard that it pays good salary that is why I decided to enroll with that course without knowing what is really it is. That is why when I enter my first year in college at the Bukidnon State University, I enrolled in Bachelor of Science in Accountancy to pursue what I want to be in the future. While I'm in the enrollment process, one of the professor that interviewed me that accountancy is very difficult in fact as a result, enrolled students in the course were decreasing as it reach in the higher level. Some of them were force to shift because they can't have the required grade to passed for the next level. Some turned out to be on probation just to continue being an accountancy student. Though she told me that information I still continued enrolling accountancy. But sad to say, I was one of the students who were forced to shift when I enrolled in  second year.

I've noticed that I am not the only student who was advise to shift. Me and my friends were recommended to shift. I have asked myself then, is this what God's plan for me or it's because of my negligence. I know the answer, it's because I forgot what I wanted to be and did not care for it anymore. I shouldn't blame God because it's my fault not Him. Being told to shift, I and my friends shifted to Financial Management.

Even in the university where I graduated, there are these students who shifted from accountancy to business course. Maybe because the course is really difficult and takes more time of studying. And now, as I graduated from Business Administration, I have asked myself, what if I pursue that course now? Maybe in the future I can still be a CPA. Who knows?

"Losing Him: Changes Everything"

Losing someone is the most difficult thing to accept. Especially when that person is the provider in the family. Losing my father was the ever saddest part that happened to my life not only to me but to our family as well. It's been eight years now when he died because of "cardioresperatory arrest." I am still at my thirteen's  that time but I can feel the pain until now. I even asked God why He have to get my Dad as early as that. When infact, we still need him in our life.

I can't forget the day he die, it was February 11, 2003 in one of the hospitals of Malaybalay City Bukidnon. At that day also was the convocation program in our school. I was second year high school then. I became the first honor in our class but nobody was there to accompany me. Though I'm happy that I received the award still my heart worried about the condition of my father. I've heard that he need to undergo an operation in his liver. I'm hopeful to see him alive again but without knowing, that the same day he died.

I've seen how much he suffered from pain because of it's ulcer but I didn't expect that he will die. From that day, everything in our lives has change. My mother becomes different, she left in our house and live in our other house. My two Kuya's were always with their friends and sometimes went home drunk. The family that was adored by our neighbors was now a broken family. I don't want it to happen but it happens. I was hurt but I am afraid to confront my mom. We live like it until each one of us decided to leave our house. My Kuya left for Manila after he graduated in high school. My other brother got married at his early age. I, continue my studies in college as a scholar at the Bukidnon State University but after two years I stop because I am no longer a scholar. My sister lives in our cousin's house in Cagayan and continue her studies there. I don't know why it needs to be like that. The family he raised has gone. It seems that though we love each other we have to live separately to continue living. Losing him in our lives was painful event that happened but living without him was the most painful because as we continue living, we have to accept that he was not there to guide us and we have recognize the changes living without him whether we like it or not.

My Friend, My Angel...

A friend is someone whom you give your trust and accept your shortcomings without questions and pretending. The one you can share the tears of happiness and sadness. Each of us have that special someone in our lives. Luckily I have that person I can call my friend.

I met her 2 years ago at the University of Mindanao, Davao City, Philippines. She's also enrolled at the University taking the same course with me, Financial Management. I didn't expect her to be my friend. Maybe because she's older and more mature than me. I feel awkward talking to her at first. I don't know why but there is something about her that made me uncomfortable. But those feelings we're gone after we started talking and having lunch or dinner together. I found her down to earth, having a kind heart, compassionate, sympathetic, and emotional at times. She's always ready to help anyone that's in need. When I am nowhere to run, she's always there willing to lend a hand. She became my mentor that teaches to be strong at all times. That no matter what happened I shouldn't give up. My guardian that guides me on what should I do and what is the right thing to do. My angel, that always there for me. She treated me as her younger sister and I found a family with her. I'm thankful I've met her, someone I can be with comfortably,  somebody that I can call my friend, my angel. Thanks Ate Glenda.

The Person Behind My Success

I believed that God place a person in our lives that will turn out to be a tool that will help us attain our dreams and goals in life. It could be a member of the family, a relative, a friend, a boyfriend, or a husband. Mine? Is my grandfather. He is the one who supported me to finish my degree.

His name is Jose Elendron. He was born on February 4, 1934 and seventy-seven years old now. He grows up at the province of Iloilo, Philippines. He got married twice because his first wife died early, wherein they've got to have three children. His second wife, my grand mother has been blessed with seven children. My grandfather is a farmer, he earns money through planting corn and grains to be sold after harvest time. He is a smoker when he was still young that is why his suffering from cough now. His doctor said, he has a pneumonia and he needs to take medicine as a maintenance.

My grandfather is strict that made us all slightly afraid of him. But though his strict and firm, he is generous, a benevolent and sympathetic. His always ready to extend his helping hand to anyone in need. I know, he has reasons why he have to act strict to us. It is because he want us to be independent and responsible to ourselves as soon as we leave in his house and make our own life. I am blessed that he has supported

A big thanks and a salute to the person behind my success. My grandfather.